Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
the more i care for you,
the more you neglect me,
the more i miss you,
the more you don't miss me,
that's why the more i concern about you,
the more you don't need my concern,
now i leave you alone,
you need my attention,
tell me what you want me to do,
when i can only leave you,
and let you find your own way to,
bring yourself to happiness.
don't count on me,
as i'm not qualified,
you said that,
and now i'm feeling much more confidence,
without you i hope that,
i can gain back what i've lost,
i can bring more joy without you,
it's your lost for giving me up,
as you don't know what i'm capable of.
the more i concern,
the more you unconcern,
think about it.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
I was shocked....you told me that you'll head to overseas with him. I never thought this would come out from your mouth. I couldn't believe it.. you told me that you're going with him, finally...the very last thing i would least expected happens.
All of sudden i feel that, my whole world crumble downs to myself,i felt the cold wind blowing through my heart.. again i felt this feeling. And i hate it so much, but that's the fact..
I really have nothing to say juz to wish u all the best in your future undertakings. And i hope that he will treat you like a queen as i did.. i will always love you though... even i can't say it anymore, but you will always know that i will love you as long as it takes...
Monday, June 22, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Wanting,lusting,to be held,to be loved,to feel warmth,to feel your beating heart.Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,heartless winds.Falling into invisible arms;into an abyss of love.Wishing,hoping,that my desires will be filled;my desires of loving warmth.Wanting to be held,comforted,loved.Dreaming of passionate embraces,of tender kisses,loving words,romantic nights.Waiting for undying love
Friday, June 12, 2009
On the 9th of June 2009, i was drinking with my ex colleague at puchong jaya. suddenly my phone msg rang. i took out my phone and found out that it was you that smsed me! i was suprise because the sms mentioning you asking me free or not as u got tickets to watch preview tomorrow which is 10th of June 2009. at one point i was happy and feeling so great cos' u did eventually ask me to watch..but you didn't mention that you want to watch with me or not. then i've asked u, to watch with me since there's 4 tickets available.. i never thought you will think of me first instead of the others. while you've asked me and i confirm you then and there, you called S n E to go but unfortunately they cannot join us then you called K to go, but u didn't mention asking D to go.. i was suprised... then eventually K n D decided to go. On that very day, i was wearing pink but actually i wanted to wear white, which you thought i would wear white, but we wore the same color of t shirts. coincidently! me myself also suprised that we bump into wearing the same color. when you entered my car, i was a bit scared but i'm really glad to see you and the feeling is hard to explain.. i feel like hugging you close to me juz to express how much i misses you.. but i didn't. i don't want you to feel that i'm taking advantage of you so i juz keep it to myself.then you said u wanna take things and asked me to wait a while. suprisingly, you gave me back the keychain which u bought for me at melacca.. i can't believe it! you still remember.. ...
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
I am someone, I walked past a dead face even though the person was alive I saw my eyes in the mirrorand cried at the sight. I looked at a person I didn¹t know, and I met a friend. I got heads to turn, when I walked past. I learned a lot about myself, when I lost a new friend. I cried every tear in my body, when I thought about love. I got hit bad, then got back in the ring. I climbed a mountain of rocks and saw an eagle fly over- head. I heard terrible things about myself when no one thought I was listeningI realized I was strong. when I didn¹t cry when it hurt. I found out who I was, when I was with someone else. I thought I was lost forever, when a friend found me. I held a life in my hand and it was my own. I was a pawn in someone else's game, so I surrendered to a brook. I walked the fine line between surviving and not wanting to survive. I still am I am someone.
A lovely rose with petals softA scent so sweet and lightSo beautiful a flowerWith colors shining bright.But something not so savoryAbout the fragrant rose -The thorns, so sharp upon the stem,That sharpen as it grows.Yet still lovely is the flowerDespite the thorns that prickJust as life and love are sweetThey too have thorns that stick.But do not fear to live or love,Life's not exempt from pain -So pick a rose, you may get hurt,But you will also gain!
Friday, June 5, 2009
Love, love is in many different languages like Amor, Amour, Love, and other many languages that have ever been created. Wait, some questions has drawn to my attention, what does “love” really mean? No matter what language it is in. Like one, what does “love” really mean? Two, does it all mean the same no matter what language it is spoken? Three, how can “love” hurt you? Four, is “love” just a set of words that does not mean anything? Five, is “love” real, can “love” really hurt you? Well no one really knows. Some people say it for the moment, some just say it to get what they want, some really mean it but get bit in the rear end for really actually saying it, and finally there is some that is to afraid to say it when they really “love” someone. Therefore, what does “love” actually mean, no matter in what language it is spoken?
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
This happened on last friday, which i will make it simple and nice..This incident happen when T wants to pass me dumpling but at the same time S got into a serious accident which I'm freaking out because I do not know how serious is she. Then T asked me on that very same day to meet her up to eat dinner and pass me the dumplings and I told her that I can't meet her that day because I need to rush to see S. I'm worry bout her safety. T then got all furious upon I go to see S first instead of her. It sounds so ridiculous and she sounded that she's a bit jealous. But what is she to jealous for? I do not understand at all. Why on earth she wants to do so? And plus she knows alot of things about me n S which suprised me and until now I don't even know who is the one that is keep on betraying me and such. Which i'm really kinda pissed off when I ask only three of them that knows about S the most. I really hope the person is ST. Because she knows the most among the three. Yesterday i indirectly confront the first one and she seems like although she got mention things bout me to T but not that much. So now left two. The 3rd one don't know much bout me and S and now only narrowed one last which is ST. I seriously hope that she's not the one that betrays me. Cause I hate betrayal among friends and even partners.So whoever u might be, stop giving my information to T. It's getting on my nerves. Period.